{"id":595,"date":"2017-11-22T23:03:21","date_gmt":"2017-11-22T23:03:21","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.iwabogdani.org\/?p=595"},"modified":"2017-11-22T23:03:21","modified_gmt":"2017-11-22T23:03:21","slug":"letrat-e-fillimit-bube-per-ty","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.iwabogdani.org\/sq\/letrat-e-fillimit-bube-per-ty\/","title":{"rendered":"Letrat e fillimit Bub\u00eb p\u00ebr Ty"},"content":{"rendered":"
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leter nga \u00e7un laj\u00e7i per te bijen<\/p>\n

Tani kur un\u00eb i lidhun me rripin e sigurimit, fluturoj qiellit mbushun mjegulla, e kur ti si engjull i bardh\u00eb fle e mbulueme me mija lopata dh\u00e9, po e zbrazi vajin mbi let\u00ebr e po rr\u00ebfehem para zemr\u00ebs sime, n\u2019munges\u00ebn tande Bubulin\u00eb.
\nTani, kur Ti ma s\u2019i lexon letrat e poezit\u00eb e mia, tani po rr\u00ebfehem p\u00ebrgjith\u00e7ka q\u00eb ti s\u2019e ke dijt\u00eb e q\u00eb un\u00eb, p\u00ebr mos me lendua shpirtin tand, kurr\u00eb s\u2019t\u00eb tregova, sepse si bab\u00eb i mir\u00eb, deshta me krijua imazhin e njeriut t\u2019fort\u00eb n\u00eb kujtes\u00ebn e vajz\u00ebs vet, t\u00eb njeriut bujar e \u201ct\u2019pasun\u201d me centa n\u2019xhep, e atdhetar t\u2019paepun ( q\u00eb fatkeq\u00ebsisht hijenat e k\u00ebtij Atdheu ia shktrruan f\u00ebmijt\u00eb e vet)
\nTani po filloj nga dy dit\u00ebt e fundit t\u00eb jet\u00ebs sate, kur t\u00eb nxorra nga spitali e t\u2019buz\u00ebqeshun t\u00eb lash n\u2019dhom\u00ebn tande ku ti i kalove plot 30 vjet.
\nT\u2019p\u00ebrqafova n\u2019or\u00ebn pes\u00eb t\u2019mengjesit t\u00eb Nandorit t\u00eb dit\u00ebs s\u00eb 18-t\u00eb e t\u00eb thash\u00eb: po nisna m\u2019u kthye me xhepa plot e rrug\u00eb me ba me Ty drejt nji shprese tjet\u00ebr, mbase t\u00eb fundit, se t\u00eb gjitha udh\u00ebtimet q\u00eb i pat\u00ebm, na dolen shterpe e gjithmon\u00eb u desht t\u2019ia nisim nga e para.
\nMe prit t\u00eb thash\u00eb tue buz\u00ebqesh\u00eb, se rruga k\u00ebsaj rradhe m\u2019asht v\u00ebrtet\u00eb e gjat\u00eb, e kur e more vesh m\u2019the: uhaaaaa… babi…deri n\u2019Australi po shkon… larg babiiii … larg!
\nDhe ika me dy \u00e7anta libra.
\nMora djers\u00ebn time t\u00eb pes\u00eb viteve grumbullua n\u2019kopertinat e \u201c P\u00ebrftimit tim n\u2019andrra t\u2019thyeme \u201d e mora rrug\u00eb drejt Njujorkut, gadi si n\u2019kang\u00ebn
\n\u201c mora rrug\u00eb p\u00ebr \u00c7ab\u00e9\u201d
\nTash q\u00eb po rr\u00ebfehem, s\u2019lendohet shpirti yt ma, se e mbulueme je me dheun e Bjeshk\u00ebve t\u00eb Nemuna atje n\u2019Drelaj e nana Gal\u00eb kurr\u00eb ma s\u2019ka me m\u2019than\u00eb: mos bre burr\u00eb, mos shkruej p\u00ebr Bub\u00ebn se ve\u00e7 shpirti i saj e din \u00e7ka po hjek\u00eb, e mund t\u2019lendohet se asht e re.
\nTani as Learti s\u2019ka me m\u2019e m\u2019 than\u00eb gja, e t\u2019i s\u2019ke m\u2019u idhnua kurr\u00eb ma, kur un\u00eb t\u00eb rr\u00ebfehem p\u00ebr dhimt\u00eb e mia e mallin p\u00ebr Ty.
\nT\u2019lash me p\u00ebrqafimet e mia t\u00eb fundit, e ti sikur ta dije se po ik\u00eb, s\u2019me l\u00ebshoje p\u00ebrqafimit, e un\u00eb po ngutesha p\u00ebr rrug\u00ebn q\u00eb do t\u2019me thehej dhe p\u00ebr mos me t\u2019lendua t\u2019thash\u00eb: Bub\u00eb ma jep nji num\u00ebr Taxish\u00eb. Ti m\u2019i diktove tre numra telefoni, e un\u00eb me tri \u00e7anta n\u2019krah ika nga dhoma jote p\u00ebr mos me t\u2019 gjet\u00eb Ty kurr\u00eb ma.
\nU nisa me shpres\u00ebn e fundit ( e ty s\u2019ta kisha than\u00eb ) me e shit\u00eb mallin tim derdhur n\u2019vargje. Lotin e vujtjet tua njizet\u00ebvje\u00e7e mbyllun n\u2019kop\u00ebrtinat e librit \u201c P\u00ebrftim n\u2019andrra t\u2019thyeme\u201d p\u00ebr t\u2019mbledh\u00eb pak para, se dojsha edhe njiher\u00eb fatin me provua n\u2019Ashkelon, t\u00eb dr.Waismanni, sigurisht p\u00ebr t\u2019fundit her\u00eb ( e ty s\u2019ta thash ) se s\u2019dojsha me t\u2019lendua n\u00eb rast deshtimi t\u2019misionit tim.
\nLibrat ndoshta s\u2019m\u2019i blen\u00eb kush, thojsha, e lek s\u2019mund fitoj e Buba ka m\u2019u deshp\u00ebrua, andaj ika i heshtun e ty t\u2019venitun t\u2019lash n\u2019shtrat.
\nBub\u00eb.
\nUn\u00eb p\u00ebr Ty shum\u00eb kujt ndihmen ia k\u00ebrkova e ty s\u2019ta thash, se bab\u00ebn e fort\u00eb e t\u2019pasun e luejta n\u2019sken\u00ebn e syve tu engjullor\u00eb.
\nTrefish jet\u00eb jetova p\u00ebr Ty.
\nArtist i pasun me centa n\u2019xhep,
\nPoet i vargut t\u00eb vonuem p\u00ebr bij\u00ebn q\u00eb po venitej,
\nE prind i fort\u00eb q\u00eb k\u00ebrkonte shpres\u00ebn e fundit p\u00ebr Yllin e vet.
\nShum\u00eb miq\u00eb e kuptuen zemr\u00ebn tande t\u2019bardh\u00eb e dor\u00ebn t\u2019a zgjat\u00ebn, por jo edhe n\u2019\u00e7astin vendimtar.
\nE vetmja gurr\u00eb q\u00eb piku e kurr\u00eb s\u2019na la t\u2019e\u00e7tuem, ishte ajo t\u00eb cil\u00ebn e dinim vetem un\u00eb e ti:
\nGurra pik\u00eb-pik\u00eb Remzi Ejupi<\/a>!
\nPor, ai q\u00eb m\u2019premtoi me provua edhe fatin e fundit, u mbyll n\u2019pasunin\u00eb e vet e ty n\u2019mshir\u00ebn e engjujve t\u2019la.
\nP\u00ebr k\u00ebte edhe ty t\u2019tregova, n\u00eb \u00e7astet tona t\u00eb deshp\u00ebrimit!
\nPor Ti kurr\u00eb s\u2019deshte me besua se bab\u00ebn s\u2019e ke t\u2019fort\u00eb, e un\u00eb i djegun mallit prap t\u2019pasunin e luejta n\u2019synin tand Yll, e forc\u00ebn e mora n\u2019shpirtin tand q\u00eb kurr\u00eb s\u2019dor\u00ebzohej dhe u shkrina n\u2019varg. T\u2019kisha frym\u00ebzim e burim jete dhe gjith\u00e7ka isha e ishe p\u00ebr mu\u2019
\nMora librat, pasunin\u00eb time t\u00eb vetme, dhe u nisa drejt shpres\u00ebs s\u00eb fundit: Amerik\u00eb- Australi!
\nI shes, thash, e lek fitoj, e Ty t\u2019nisi edhe njiher\u00eb drejt shpetimit, e m\u00ebshir\u00eb ma s\u2019k\u00ebrkoj!
\nPor jo.
\nRruga k\u00ebsaj rradhe m\u2019u thye n\u2019gjys\u00eb, n\u00eb Njujork, ende n\u2019Melburn pa shkua, gadi si n\u2019at\u00eb poezin\u00eb e atij poetit, q\u00eb gomari i i kishte cof\u00eb pa mbrri n\u2019Ka\u00e7anik!
\nU shtrina m\u2019e pushua shpirtin nga rrug\u00eb e larg\u00ebt t\u00eb tezja Sheke, dhe kur telefoni me zgjoj un\u00eb n\u2019and\u00ebr po flisja me Gal\u00ebn. Shko n\u2019dhom\u00eb po i thosha se m\u2019duket thirri Buba.
\n(Ti e din zem\u00ebr, sa her\u00eb zgjoheshe, thirrshe: mam\u00eb… bab\u00eb! Mbase nga frika se ke mbet vet\u00ebm!)
\nMe ty pra po flisja kur mora lajmin nga Lati, yt vlla, p\u00ebr gjumin tand t\u00eb rand\u00eb!
\nDhe u thye rruga e shpresa, e vargjet prap i mbylla n\u2019kopertina, e pasi e p\u00ebrqafova Bubulin\u00ebn n\u00eb Shek\u00ebn e Isufit, mora rrug\u00eb kthimi me dhimbjen e ndrydhun n\u2019zem\u00ebr, e lot\u00ebt \u00e7urg n\u2019sy!
\nNga Dardania t\u2019erdha prapa n\u2019udhtimin tand t\u00eb fundit, drejt bjeshk\u00ebs, (q\u00eb e kisha shkrua p\u00ebr vet\u00ebn time n\u00eb nji poezi)
\nUlkonj Ti e Ujk un\u00eb.
\nE mbyllun n\u2019sarkofag Ti,
\nI humbun n\u2019liri un\u00eb
\nPa jet\u00eb Ti,
\nGjall\u00eb i vdekun un\u00eb.
\nN\u00eb larcat e para t\u00eb bor\u00ebs, n\u2019sarkofagun e bardh\u00eb, si n\u2019fustanin nuseror\u00eb, ble nga Leli, daja yt, t\u2019paluem n\u2019varrin e ftoht\u00eb, tue b\u00eblb\u00ebzua fjal\u00ebt e fundit:Nat\u00ebn e mir\u00eb Bubulin\u00eb…q\u00eb po t\u2019me d\u00ebgjoje do t\u2019me thoshe: artist i keq je bab\u00eb!
\nTani s\u2019di pse po shkruaj as pse po e vazhdoj rrug\u00ebtimin e thyem.
\nS\u2019di pse po fluturoj qiellit i strukun t\u00eb dritarja e vog\u00ebl e avionit drejt shpres\u00ebs Melburn, q\u00eb p\u00ebr Ty u nisa m\u2019e ba.
\nPor, s\u2019po m\u2019lan\u00eb ato fjal\u00ebt tua q\u00eb shum\u00ebher\u00eb m\u2019i thoshe: mos i le pun\u00ebt p\u00ebr mua bab\u00eb! E un\u00eb merrsha rrug\u00eb me forc\u00ebn e fjal\u00ebs tande, t\u2019vullnetit p\u00ebr jet\u00ebn e artin q\u00eb bukur e fillove, e q\u00eb u prish, me dit\u00ebn kur deshte me provua fundin e m\u2019u kthye p\u00ebr t\u2019na tregua, si n\u2019filmin tand t\u00eb par\u00eb, t\u00eb ai Irlandezi Brendon Grant, me at titull dreqi \u201cSonte gjith\u00e7ka u prish\u201d
\nBub\u00eb, t\u2019gjallit iu dashka buka e uji, e mua m\u2019u dashka prap m\u2019e luejt njeriun e fort\u00eb e t\u2019 pasun me centa n\u2019xhep, se n\u2019Prishtin\u00eb kur t\u2019kthehem me presin kujtimet e bukura p\u00ebr Ty.
\nEdhe Gala edhe Yt vlla Learti, e fluturim m\u00eb marr\u00eb drejt Bjeshk\u00ebve t\u00eb Nemuna, aty ku ti p\u00ebrher\u00eb do t\u2019na pres\u00ebsh tue thirr\u00eb: bab… nan\u00eb!
\nBubulin\u00eb
\nK\u00ebto udh\u00ebtime t\u2019gjata s\u2019paskan ma hieshi pa ty. S\u2019i durueka ma nalt\u00ebsit\u00eb shpirti plak pa ftyr\u00ebn tande engjullore p\u00ebshtetun n\u2019krahun tim.
\nNjizet\u00eb vjet e luejta lojen e aktorit t\u00eb madh e poetit t\u2019von\u00eb, por t\u2019betohem se isha varfanjak, e shum\u00eb i pasun q\u00eb t\u2019kisha Ty!
\nTash, kur po shoh n\u2019monitorin e avionit se kalova mbi Izrael, aty ku e k\u00ebrkuam shp\u00ebtimin e fundit t\u00eb ai Doktori Waismann, po i pi dy gota raki anglezi q\u00eb ta pickoj shpirtin e lodhun e trunin ta mjegulloj, q\u00eb t\u00eb zgjohem nes\u00ebr e prap me shkrua tue fol\u00eb me ty p\u00ebr Ashkelonin e Malin, p\u00ebr Zagrebin e Megjugorjen, p\u00ebr Shkupin e Beogradin, p\u00ebr Tiran\u00ebn e Stambollin, q\u00eb ta p\u00ebrfundojm\u00eb me dr Fatonin n\u2019Prishtin\u00eb. Eh sa shum\u00eb kemi me fol\u00eb bashk\u00eb deri sa t\u00eb shtrihemi un\u00eb e mami aty pran\u00eb teje moj Bubulin\u00eb! Edhe aman mos i trego kurkujt se Learti ka vendos m\u2019u martua e vajz\u00ebs q\u00eb do t\u2019i lind do t\u2019ia le emnin tand Bubulin\u00eb!
\nUh, harrova me t\u2019than\u00eb se kur t\u00eb kthehna du me ta ble at ariun lod\u00ebr, Kualla m\u2019duket se i thon\u00eb, si at\u00ebher\u00eb kur ta solla me 1993, po nga ky udh\u00ebtim, e kam me ta lan\u00eb t\u00eb varri, se mua e Leartit e Gal\u00ebs, s\u2019na duhet tjet\u00ebr gja, pos kujtimeve t\u00eb bukura p\u00ebr Ty, e ke me na tregua se \u00e7ka deshte nan\u00ebs me i than\u00eb at\u00eb nat\u00ebn e fundit, kur i the: mam\u00eb, dua me t\u2019regua di\u00e7ka, por hajt se nes\u00ebr e merr vesh!!!<\/p>\n<\/div>\n

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leter nga \u00e7un laj\u00e7i per te bijen Tani kur un\u00eb i lidhun me rripin e sigurimit, fluturoj qiellit mbushun mjegulla, e kur ti si engjull i bardh\u00eb fle e mbulueme me mija lopata dh\u00e9, po e zbrazi vajin mbi let\u00ebr e po rr\u00ebfehem para zemr\u00ebs sime, n\u2019munges\u00ebn tande Bubulin\u00eb. Tani, kur Ti ma s\u2019i lexon […]<\/p>","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":596,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_exactmetrics_skip_tracking":false,"_exactmetrics_sitenote_active":false,"_exactmetrics_sitenote_note":"","_exactmetrics_sitenote_category":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[165],"tags":[],"book_author":[],"book_publisher":[],"acf":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.iwabogdani.org\/sq\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/595"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.iwabogdani.org\/sq\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.iwabogdani.org\/sq\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.iwabogdani.org\/sq\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.iwabogdani.org\/sq\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=595"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.iwabogdani.org\/sq\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/595\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.iwabogdani.org\/sq\/wp-json\/"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.iwabogdani.org\/sq\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=595"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.iwabogdani.org\/sq\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=595"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.iwabogdani.org\/sq\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=595"},{"taxonomy":"book_author","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.iwabogdani.org\/sq\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/book_author?post=595"},{"taxonomy":"book_publisher","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.iwabogdani.org\/sq\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/book_publisher?post=595"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}